So I’m slowly getting over my fear of driving, have stopped
getting lost and am not as scared of merging onto motorways. As I said the
other day, it’s all learn by doing, so I have been doing it a lot and driving
all over the place and often. I even went for completely pointless 20 mile
drive at 11pm that ended in a trip to Tesco for hay fever tablets and a bottle
of water. Marc’s eyes suddenly looked like he was infected with some kind of
zombie virus, but typically by the time we got to a 24 hour supermarket, it had
cleared up.
It has been a pretty uneventful two days for doing things
that scare me, so this will be quite short and I'm mainly only writing to keep up to date and not neglect any regular readers. I actually care about you lot and LOVE that I'm getting views from as far away as Malaysia and USA, so keep it up and tell your friends and get me more readers. Obviously tell them that I'm normally more interesting than this.
But I did have a small hour of panic
yesterday about the way things are going. As I said in a previous post, all of
a sudden, everything is going right, but all of a sudden I have adult things to
worry about. Now I have money and a car, I have to save for car insurance,
worry about adult things like having loose change to park, where am I going to
park? When should I start saving for Christmas and should I have some kind of
back up fund in case I’m horrible at being a barmaid and get sacked?
Now I don’t know the answer to any of those, but I do know
that I owe my parents around £500 for car insurance as I only had three
quarters of it saved and I should start paying them back. If I work 16 hours in
a week, I can earn £100, and this means that I need to start managing my money
again and learn to save and accommodate, instead of living in an overdraft and
squandering student loans.
Part of me missed the simplicity of being a student, but
then I remembered that for most of it, I felt stuck in a rut and couldn’t wait
to start being more independent and move on. So I am. I have ambition, I have
responsibilities that will help things move forward in whatever direction I
decide upon, and little inconveniences like parking and the change required for
parking meters are just an annoying part of growing up.
So I have found out the dates for my insurance and MOT, will
find my tax expiry date tomorrow and will look into breakdown cover with my
dad. I will stop seeing work as the downfall of the social life I never
actually really had and see it as a way of making more money than I currently
need. So I will budget and start saving three ways: Car stuff, Christmas and
spending money for a holiday next year.
How very adult of me!
I’ve also had to learn to prioritise. I got offered a three
day school placement, but having already cancelled one, I’ve also cancelled
this one. While my long term aims are the most important, I need money to make
them happen and can’t really afford to annoy my boss with days off just yet.
That can wait till September when hopefully, I’ll have another one day a week 6
hour placement.
For now, I have my weekly workshop and I love it, I have
this and I have my writing which I need get back into. I have a supportive
family, boyfriend and friends, a fat pony that makes me laugh, a job and a car.
For the first time since finishing uni, I feel calm and able to count my blessings
and enjoy my year out. I’ve stopped waking up feeling nervous, and instead wake
up feeling content. At the moment, things are great.
I apologise that tonight’s post is just me rambling! Sorry
that it’s been boring, but things never stay quiet for long. I can almost guarantee
that the crazy will resume shortly. Probably before the weekend is out!
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